Oh that harsh devil inside. Do you make yourself known? When the switch flips south and light exits the room you attack my thoughts without mercy. Your resolve and will is destructive. You drive your intentions deep into my soul. And there I rest, the monster inside playing around inside me like a wrecking ball. You exist in all of my doubt about life and tear me apart the more I try and run from you.
But I am going to fight no longer, only to warmly embrace your presence. Does this baffle you? Does this make you weep at the thought of the grip you once had that exists no longer? You held onto me so powerful and so tight due to my inability to see the battle boosted your strength. Like quicksand I sunk the more that I moved. But like I said before, I embrace the darkness now.
Things have changed. I can see clearly now that darkness can deliver light. There isn't any fear in this heart anymore with reference to you showing up. Why? Because you are here...right here inside me. Not walled out from me anymore. Not pushed away. Just here with me. Present. Really present.
I'm truly aware of what you really are and who you turned me into. I'm not attempting to fool anybody anymore by showing them a smile on my face. No, I should just be myself. So I tip my cap to you to all the times you cut me down. Now, let's take a hike and work this thing out. I would like to hear what you have to say about all the years of the past. How proud are you? How much fun did you have? Are you pleased with your achievements? Maybe... I can even clap to your success?
But we are moving on and this is the beginning of a long relationship. I am going to start chatting with you for the 1st time. But now, my decisions are based primarily on light. It's really time to begin living my life and make the best choices I can. But I know that I must consult with you...oh harsh devil inside. You can show me a path that is worth exploring in of its own. You can show me places I have always been scared to go. But to ignore you further would be out of idiocy. Foolishness. Fear.
So let's go for a walk. I'd like to hear what you have got to say.
But I am going to fight no longer, only to warmly embrace your presence. Does this baffle you? Does this make you weep at the thought of the grip you once had that exists no longer? You held onto me so powerful and so tight due to my inability to see the battle boosted your strength. Like quicksand I sunk the more that I moved. But like I said before, I embrace the darkness now.
Things have changed. I can see clearly now that darkness can deliver light. There isn't any fear in this heart anymore with reference to you showing up. Why? Because you are here...right here inside me. Not walled out from me anymore. Not pushed away. Just here with me. Present. Really present.
I'm truly aware of what you really are and who you turned me into. I'm not attempting to fool anybody anymore by showing them a smile on my face. No, I should just be myself. So I tip my cap to you to all the times you cut me down. Now, let's take a hike and work this thing out. I would like to hear what you have to say about all the years of the past. How proud are you? How much fun did you have? Are you pleased with your achievements? Maybe... I can even clap to your success?
But we are moving on and this is the beginning of a long relationship. I am going to start chatting with you for the 1st time. But now, my decisions are based primarily on light. It's really time to begin living my life and make the best choices I can. But I know that I must consult with you...oh harsh devil inside. You can show me a path that is worth exploring in of its own. You can show me places I have always been scared to go. But to ignore you further would be out of idiocy. Foolishness. Fear.
So let's go for a walk. I'd like to hear what you have got to say.
About the Author:
Evan Sanders is the author of The Words Of Encouragement a website dedicated to spreading encouraging words to everyone who visits and giving them a reason to continue chasing after their dreams. If you are stuck in a rough place, perhaps dealing with that devil within right now, please read these quotes about depression. They will help. A lot.
